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A soul learning how to truly live life, one day at a time. I’m on a journey of healing, growth, and rediscovering joy in the little things.

  • In Between Seasons

    I have not blogged in a while. It’s been the stress of moving out, dealing with intense family drama, being sick on and off for over a month. And somehow managing to take two trips. Life is going by so, so fast, but the days are so, so slow. I’m feeling the universe push me to try new things, do new things, transform, and get out of my comfort zone.

    Work is slow and easy, and although it sounds like a dream to most, I feel that I am not loving it. I don’t feel like I am mentally stimulated. I want something creative, something new. But I’m telling myself maybe I need the slowness at work right now, cause I am dealing with a lot in my personal life. I also think I need to get back into my routine and be more disciplined. It could be the winter blues hitting me again—this weather has been absolutely dreadful in New York right now. I know I need to enjoy the now, cause all we have is each day and this moment right now. But I just cannot wait until the warmth of the sun is shining down on my skin and I can hear the birds chirping early in the morning. I can’t wait to take my cute scenic walks through the West Village with an iced latte in my hand. I can’t wait to actually wear cute outfits and not walk around looking like a goth marshmallow. In the meantime, I can use this time to recharge and regroup. This is gonna be a big year for me—I feel it.

  • Love me

    I am loved deeply.

    I am loved deeply and fully.

    I am chosen. I am worthy. I am rare. I am divine. I am special. I am magical. I am magnetic.

    I am filled with so much love and gratitude. My heart is filled with every emotion, and I am grateful to feel it all. My soul would come back to experience this life again and again — not because I have lessons to learn, but because I want to feel the intensity. I want to transform — alchemize the pain to power.

    I love my life. I love my soul.

    I am love.

  • Life as a Scorpio Soul

    In honor of Scorpio season — and me not only being a Scorpio sun, but also rising, Venus, Jupiter, Pluto, and North Node all in the first house — I feel like I just gotta take a minute to explain how it feels to be a heavy Scorpio. Like, I literally think I am the Scorpio. Add in my Cancer moon and I’m all water.

    Being a Scorpio means being dark, passionate, deep, intuitive, psychological, and completely in tune with your feelings — being extra psychic, too. You only play dumb when you need to, but trust me, I’m ten steps ahead of you. Whenever I’ve decided to be more logical and not listen to my gut feeling, I’ve done myself dirty. I need to listen to my intuition — it has never steered me wrong.

    You just gotta trust that the universe is working for you. Allow the heavy emotions to flow in and out like the ocean waves. Scorpio energy is like a thunderstorm in the middle of the ocean — powerful, chaotic, beautiful. But it’s also playful, empathic, and has a heart so big the aliens in the next multiverse could feel it.

    Being this Scorpionic ain’t for the weak. It comes with heavy, deep, dark themes in life — lots of transformation and isolation. Never actually finding love, because who could even match your depth? Having that obsessive, all-or-nothing energy. Constant hardships that feel like death — like an actual death. I think I’ve died about seven, maybe eight or nine times already. But with death comes rebirth.

    My soul is wise beyond my years, yet I know I still carry a youthful, playful energy. The Scorpio woman isn’t in-your-face sexy — she’s more like a siren. Most men are intimidated and scared. Maybe it’s better that way. I tell myself the right one won’t be scared of my intensity — he’ll love it.

    Life feels like a constant battle, one after the next, but I am one of the strongest soldiers. I used to think emotions were a weakness, but they actually work to my advantage. I have them under control for the most part, though once in a while I do crash out. I scare myself with how much I feel — like, I don’t think the average person feels as deeply as I do.

    I’ve learned to embrace the darkness, and I now know my soul’s purpose is to turn darkness into light. I’m now loving diving deep into the waves — waves of feelings, emotions, passion, and intensity.

  • The Burnout Blues

    I’m doing all the right things—or at least I think I am. Waking up on time consistently, trying to get a good night’s sleep (sometimes I do, sometimes my brain doesn’t shut off), adulting, running errands, and doing all my chores. Working my 9-5 and working out. Making time to socialize and time for myself. Trying to get 10k steps in every day and soak up some sunlight so seasonal depression doesn’t hit me as hard. Investing in my appearance because, you know, when you look good, you feel good.

    And yet, I still feel burnt out. I’m not sure why. I make time for myself to have some lazy moments, but it doesn’t seem to be enough. I feel like I’m someone who likes to create and be productive. I haven’t even been blogging as much as I’d like because I feel like I’m running non-stop.

    How do people recover from burnout, and how long does it take? I’ve had enough—and we’re not even halfway through October. The year just went by so fast. I guess I may need to get back into meditation. I want to be more mindful and present and practice gratitude for what I do have now.

  • The last eclipse of 2025 is in Virgo

    Eclipses bring matters to light that have been repressed, and this lunation is urging us to be honest with ourselves — to free ourselves from the old and move into newness. I think I used to tell myself I was ready before, out with the old and in with the new. But this time, I am really ready.

    It’s comforting to hold on to what we’ve always known, even if what we’ve always known was chaotic. I think I like holding on to memories because those memories come with feelings. I know my feelings are intense and they run deep — sometimes it’s too much for me to even handle, but I somehow handle them, like I handle everything else in life.

    Sometimes I catch myself in a panicked state of mind, wanting to chase, but I want to surrender this eclipse and let go. Let go and let God lead the way. What’s meant for me will find its way to me.

    I think I’ll spend time this weekend alone, meditating and taking it slow. I’ll be sure to look out for the signs from the universe — they are always there. Often I find myself feeling alone, and that’s not a bad thing; I like being alone, but I need to remember I am never truly alone.